I won a year supply of Crystal Light and 300 bucks in Laser surgery!
(??)
Wow. I never win anything. But what am I going to do with all that Crystal Light?
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Sunday, May 18, 2008
a year of firsts
I've been in New York for almost 8 months now. Since October. That's so odd to me! People are graduating. This is the first year I haven't been in a classroom.
It's about to be summer again...this time last year I was starting my Kentucky adventure. I wonder what this summer will be like. A part of me wants to pretend like I'm still in college and do nothing but party. But I'm an adult now and my career doesn't allow summer vacations. Especially when I don't make the most of the rest of the year.
Gosh, I keep learning new things about myself. A lot of them are negative. But that's okay, because I'm learning how to fix it all. For example: I am a total lazy ass procrastinator. Well, I guess I knew that already. But I'm learning how to keep a schedule and keep myself motivated. Really. But also, this is the first time I've been completely on my own. I relied on my parents way too much growing up. And I had a group of best friends. Then I went off to college, met Grace, and we quickly became inseparable. This the first time I don't really have anybody at all, and it's kind of freeing. I'm having to adjust, and it's a good thing.
Despite everything, I'm very content right now. Everything seems to be okay.
I'm doing Bikram yoga (aka "hot" yoga)...it's teaching me discipline. It's just about the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, so when you get out of class you feel like you can do ANYTHING! Everything else in life seems so simple in comparison, and lovely. And you also sweat so much that it gets all the toxins out.
And I want a dog! Like, really bad.
It's about to be summer again...this time last year I was starting my Kentucky adventure. I wonder what this summer will be like. A part of me wants to pretend like I'm still in college and do nothing but party. But I'm an adult now and my career doesn't allow summer vacations. Especially when I don't make the most of the rest of the year.
Gosh, I keep learning new things about myself. A lot of them are negative. But that's okay, because I'm learning how to fix it all. For example: I am a total lazy ass procrastinator. Well, I guess I knew that already. But I'm learning how to keep a schedule and keep myself motivated. Really. But also, this is the first time I've been completely on my own. I relied on my parents way too much growing up. And I had a group of best friends. Then I went off to college, met Grace, and we quickly became inseparable. This the first time I don't really have anybody at all, and it's kind of freeing. I'm having to adjust, and it's a good thing.
Despite everything, I'm very content right now. Everything seems to be okay.
I'm doing Bikram yoga (aka "hot" yoga)...it's teaching me discipline. It's just about the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, so when you get out of class you feel like you can do ANYTHING! Everything else in life seems so simple in comparison, and lovely. And you also sweat so much that it gets all the toxins out.
And I want a dog! Like, really bad.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
mikah the composer
A recent blog by one of my college friends brought back a memory that makes me smile.
When I was in 2nd grade, Andrea and I were going to start a band. It was going to be called "BFF: Best Friends Forever." I remember parts of our first song. "The grass is green, the sky is blue. You like me, and I like you." So simple! Is that really how simple life was back then? Or were we just trying to put together any words that rhyme? I'm guessing a little of both. :)
The rest of the lyrics were various phrases like..."the dolphins swim", "the birds fly", and my personal favorite: "the ladybugs crawl." I don't really remember the rest: maybe she does? But we would dance around on the Chamberlin school playground coming up with this "song." The song had a tune that wasn't very melodic and changed almost every day, but still, we just knew it was going to make us famous.
In a way, I'm still this idealistic and naive. I still have this [sometimes ridiculous] hope for all these many projects I start. I still think that someday in the future something miraculously wonderful is going to happen to me. The difference is that now things get so complicated. When I focus on the future I see a lot of obstacles and hoops to jump through. Sometimes it all gets so complicated that I just want to go back to skipping around on the playground singing nonsensical rhymes.
When I was in 2nd grade, Andrea and I were going to start a band. It was going to be called "BFF: Best Friends Forever." I remember parts of our first song. "The grass is green, the sky is blue. You like me, and I like you." So simple! Is that really how simple life was back then? Or were we just trying to put together any words that rhyme? I'm guessing a little of both. :)
The rest of the lyrics were various phrases like..."the dolphins swim", "the birds fly", and my personal favorite: "the ladybugs crawl." I don't really remember the rest: maybe she does? But we would dance around on the Chamberlin school playground coming up with this "song." The song had a tune that wasn't very melodic and changed almost every day, but still, we just knew it was going to make us famous.
In a way, I'm still this idealistic and naive. I still have this [sometimes ridiculous] hope for all these many projects I start. I still think that someday in the future something miraculously wonderful is going to happen to me. The difference is that now things get so complicated. When I focus on the future I see a lot of obstacles and hoops to jump through. Sometimes it all gets so complicated that I just want to go back to skipping around on the playground singing nonsensical rhymes.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
inspiration
Thanks to Nina and Grace, I am once again motivated!
Here's the deal. Nina and I have the same days off of work. We are going to start going to dance classes next week. 4 a week (2 jazz, 1 tap, 1 musical theatre). We are also going to go jogging in Central Park at least once a week, as weather permits. We are also going to start volunteering with New York Cares. We have our first orientation set up for Thursday. All of this is in my planner so it's official and I can't back out. I am going to be a wonderful busy person.
That's all.
Here's the deal. Nina and I have the same days off of work. We are going to start going to dance classes next week. 4 a week (2 jazz, 1 tap, 1 musical theatre). We are also going to go jogging in Central Park at least once a week, as weather permits. We are also going to start volunteering with New York Cares. We have our first orientation set up for Thursday. All of this is in my planner so it's official and I can't back out. I am going to be a wonderful busy person.
That's all.
Friday, February 8, 2008
ooh, reality tv
I went to my first audition recently. It was for MTV's reality TV show "Find the Next Elle Woods!" I straightened my hair and then curled it into big soft curls, and then wore this pink and black kinda leopard print wrap dress thing. I looked so damn cute. I showed up 3 hours before the call is supposed to start, and there was already this line of about 80 little sorority girls in front of me. Then...it started snowing. It snowed hard. And didn't let up for a single minute of those 3 hours I waited. It was actually kind of funny in a not so funny way. When we finally got in, we had to wait longer. I finally get in the actual audition room. There were about 15 people in the audience. Kate Shindle, the dance captain for Legally Blonde, Bernie Telsey, the writers, the director, MTV folk, the list goes on and on. Everyone was really really nice. I got on stage and proceeded to embarrass myself beyond belief. The accompanist screwed up my song to where it was unrecognizable. I think she was even switching time signatures; I don't know what the hell she was doing. My voice wasn't it's best because I was out in the snow for 3 hours. And these factors shook me to where I mixed up the words. It was the worst audition I've ever given in my entire life. And in front of all these important people. I wanted to die.
Oh, and I forgot. Right after my audition I had to rush over to 51st and Broadway, throw on a poodle skirt, and sing and wait tables until midnight. What a fantastic way to end the day!
Oh, and I forgot. Right after my audition I had to rush over to 51st and Broadway, throw on a poodle skirt, and sing and wait tables until midnight. What a fantastic way to end the day!
Saturday, January 26, 2008
my new friends are talented.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
all or nothing
So sometimes I'm incredibly inspired and sometimes I'm so lazy and I just sit on my butt all day. I hate when I do that. It's always all or nothing with me. With everything. I get so excited about things, and start so many projects, but then never finish them. I can't follow through. It's like I use all my energy up on being excited at the start and then I have nothing left. Frustrating.
I have so many big ideas about this new year, so many things I want to accomplish. The problem is that they all seem to be linked together. It seems to me like I can't do one without the other. Like, I want to start going on auditions, but to do that I feel like I need to get in shape, start taking classes, go to the dermatologist, and get new headshots. Okay.. But I can't get new headshots without going to the dermatologist, getting my hair done, and getting in shape first! And I shouldn't really go the gym until I completely get rid of this sick thing I have that doesn't seem to be going away. And I don't want to start taking classes until I'm well, my skin is better, and I'm in shape. And on top of all that, everything I need to do costs a ton of money and I need to space it all out to save. It's like a never ending puzzle. I can't figure out what I need to start with, so I'm sitting in limbo, waiting for something to happen to me. Why can't I just suck it up and jump in?
Probably the gym would be a good starting point. But...yuck.
I should use my "all or nothingness" on the gym. Maybe I could get myself addicted to exercise. Now THAT would be a good phase to go through.
I have so many big ideas about this new year, so many things I want to accomplish. The problem is that they all seem to be linked together. It seems to me like I can't do one without the other. Like, I want to start going on auditions, but to do that I feel like I need to get in shape, start taking classes, go to the dermatologist, and get new headshots. Okay.. But I can't get new headshots without going to the dermatologist, getting my hair done, and getting in shape first! And I shouldn't really go the gym until I completely get rid of this sick thing I have that doesn't seem to be going away. And I don't want to start taking classes until I'm well, my skin is better, and I'm in shape. And on top of all that, everything I need to do costs a ton of money and I need to space it all out to save. It's like a never ending puzzle. I can't figure out what I need to start with, so I'm sitting in limbo, waiting for something to happen to me. Why can't I just suck it up and jump in?
Probably the gym would be a good starting point. But...yuck.
I should use my "all or nothingness" on the gym. Maybe I could get myself addicted to exercise. Now THAT would be a good phase to go through.
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